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Mon, Aug. 12th, 2013, 01:29 pm

Medium: Television.
Fandom: Buffy the Vampire Slayer.
Subject: Buffy/Spike.
Title: don't be afraid, you're already dead.

I find Spuffy one of the most fascinating relationships ever brought to television. From mortal enemies to reluctant allies to lovers to genuine friends - it was an amazing ride and I've come to appreciate it more than ever as I revisited season 6. I initially wanted to make this a season 5/early season 6 mix, before all the self destruction and angry sex. Naturally, it ended up being nothing but self destruction and sex. This mix chronicles the beginning of their sexual relationship to the very end of season six. Buffy stills feels dead inside, ripped from heaven and now unable to connect with anybody. Spike is in love with her in the very best way his soulless self knows how and that's why he takes it from her when she treats him so horribly. She does not love him, not even close at this point. But she needs him, even if it eventually starts hurting her more than it does help.

tired - k's choice
Life is easy when you fake it
Right until you realize
Your happiness is unrelated
To anything you have inside

And it doesn't feel right
And I'm mostly very tired

Every chance I get to distract myself
I won't try to convince myself
That there's anything for real or
That we're sure of what we feel

lover i don't have to love - bettie seevert
I want a lover I don't have to love
I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk
Yea, where's the kid with the chemicals?
I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full
I need a meaning I can memorize
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind

You write such pretty words
But life's no story book
Love's an excuse to get hurt
And to hurt...
Do you like to hurt?
I do, I do, Then hurt me.

depeche mode - enjoy the silence
Words like violence
Break the silence
Come crashing in
Into my little world
Painful to me, Pierce right through me
Can't you understand?
Oh, my little girl

All I ever wanted, All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm.

I am Doll eyes
Doll mouth, Doll legs
I am Doll arm
Big veins, Dog bait

I want to be the girl with the most cake
I love him so much, it just turns to hate
I fake it so real I am beyond fake
And someday you will ache like I ache

play dead - bjork
I play dead, it stops the hurting
I play dead And the hurt stops
It's sometimes just like sleeping
Curling up inside my private tortures
I nestle into pain
Hug suffering
Caress every ache

I play dead, It stops the hurting.

sleep alone - bat for lashes
Last night's parties and last nights horrorshow
Smiling and whirling and kissing all I know
Give my soul, give my soul, sing it free across the sea
A lonely spell to conjure you, but conjure hell is all I do.

cold, cold night - the white stripes
I can't stand it any longer
I need the fuel to make my fire bright
So don't fight it any longer

Come to me again
In the cold, cold night
In the cold, cold night.

this is hardcore - pulp
Oh this is Hardcore - there is no way back for you.
Oh this is Hardcore - this is me on top of you
and I can't believe it took me this long.

This is the eye of the storm.
It's what men in stained raincoats pay for
but in here it is pure.
This is the end of the line.
I've seen the storyline played out so many times before.

sick, sick, sick - queens of the stone age
So, please don't save something
Waste not, save nothing
Lose the halo, don't need to resist
I lick on my lips, and I grip on your hips

Sick, sick, sick
Don't resist
Sick, sick, sick
Don't resist.

living dead girl - rob zombie
Crawl on me
Sink into me
Die for me
Living dead girl

don't be afraid, you're already dead - akron/family
don't be afraid, it's only love
love is simple
don't be afraid, you're already dead
love is simple.

in my veins - andrew belle
Oh you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Oh you're all I taste
At night inside of my mouth
Oh you run away
Cause I am not what you found
Oh you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out.

trout heart replica - amanda palmer & the grand theft orchestra
And killing things is not so hard
it's hurting that's the hardest part
And when the wizard gets to me
I'm asking for a smaller heart

criminal - fiona apple
I've been a bad, bad girl
I've been careless with a delicate man
And it's a sad, sad world
When a girl will break a boy
Just because she can

Don't you tell me to deny it
I've done wrong and I wanna suffer for my sins
I've come to you cause I need guidance to be true
And I just don't know where I can begin

wake up - three days grace
'm not angry all the time
You push me down at least you try
Until we see this eye to eye
I don't want you

It took so long to see
You walked away from me
When I need you

Wake up I'm pounding on the door
I'm not the man I was before
Where the hell are you When I need you?
Wake up I'm pounding on the door
I won't hurt you anymore.

8track | .zip

Wed, Aug. 21st, 2013 11:24 am (UTC)

Downloading, thanks! :D

Sat, Nov. 2nd, 2013 04:25 am (UTC)

Youhave absolutely gorgeous song choices! Seriously, so fitting.

Would it be possible to re-up, though? MF took it down. D:

Anyway, thanks!